This is a tale of many tears. Mostly hormone induced, but tears no less. During my self-imposed sewing challenge, I got 2 1/2 items finished: the leggings, the maxi skirt and almost all of the navy dress.
Here's the long rundown...
-Swung by Joann's after work to get some elastic and thread.
-After dinner, I crashed, hoping to get up early and get cracking
Woke up, breakfast, organized sewing area, got all patterns/fabric/notions together, removed pocket from the men's shirt, left to meet doula for breakfast (yeah, I eat two of those now)
Left breakfast #2, Vet for dog meds, Target, got home
Cut out leggings
Cut out renfrew
Break, snack, facebook, bloglovin, and much needed stretching
Cut out maxi skirt (included a 15 refresh cycle in the dryer to get wrinkles out) and redoing my measurements
Break-my back is really hurting at this point
Feeling a lack of sewjo, back still hurts, hips hurt, but power on, starting with the leggings
Mess with serger, was picked up from the shop on Wednesday, and it's messing up again, now I'm hungry, eat
Get back to leggings
Done! Take an ice cream break
Take dog on walk with the hubby
Back to work on the maxi
Finish Maxi (took much longer than it should have!)
Shower, eat, and lights out
Up, breakfast, we clean the bathrooms, do laundry, empty dishwasher and vacuum/mop floors
Pick up food, head home
Friends come over to scout for baby shower
Finally stop going, eat ice cream and veg on the couch for a minute
Dog walk with the hubby
Nap. I'm really feeling exhausted by this point
Wake up, make tea, check email
Start working on blue dress, get sides and shoulders done, cut out bias strips, and get neck bias almost finished
Taking entirely too long, serger acting up again, want to claw eyes out, but just have a little weep instead
Rethread machine for the 2nd time
Still doesn't work, lower looper thread keeps breaking (what I originally took it in for). At this point, I now want to throw the machine and cry and have a very strong alcoholic beverage. All I can do is cry though. I decide the best alternative is a hot shower.
Back at it, decided to use the good ol' IT trick "have you tried turning it off and back on?" Nope, still nothing
Try old serger, can't get tension right (hence it being retired)
F*ck it. Admit defeat, shed more tears. The hubby is extra sweet in my sewing crisis.
Let's be clear, I set myself up for failure. I knew I had a lot going on, but thing is, I'm really, really stubborn. My husband is convinced that stubbornness will be what gets me through birth with no meds. When I get something in my head, I don't want to back down.
Another issue, I keep forgetting that at 32 weeks pregnant, I cannot do everything with the same energy I could at 0 weeks pregnant. I can't stand on my feet for hours cutting out fabric without my body retaliating with a burning back ache later. It's frustrating, because my head is still in it, but my body just won't.
And of course, the serger. It's another story for another day. This is already a long post, so I'll take that one on separately.
I was sorely disappointed in myself last night. I put myself out there on this blog, hoping the public decree would really light a fire under my ass. But when it came down to it, I just couldn't do it all. Maybe I am just a slow sewist and I just got ahead of myself?
I know we're not supposed to compare ourselves with others, but it's hard not to when you see bloggers post completed project after completed project and you wonder, what am I doing wrong? And sometimes you can't help the comparison in those low emotional moments. Is there something that they've figured out that I haven't? What construction tricks have they mastered that I haven't?
Even the items I got done are far from perfect. I gathered the maxi and put on a yoga style waistband. The gathers are uneven. And because of my big bump, I took off some of the top of the leggings, which I shouldn't have. Thank goodness I can't bend over or hello crack!
I don't have the magic answer, but I know that my sewing problems are nothing on the grand scale, and I try to remind myself of that when I get teary eyed over a sewing project. Right now it's hard to separate my regular emotions from my hormonal induced ones, but thankfully, today my perspective is much, much better than it was Sunday night! For me, I think a good, working machine, patience, and lots more practice are key.
And the finished items...
The maxi is made out of an olive jersey I got from FIDM for $1/yard. I wore it to work Monday and it was very, very comfy.
pregnancy causes drag lines, idgaf!
The leggings are made out of a navy denim looking stretch. I bought it at Mood LA listed at $10 yard, and on sale, so I walked out with 1 yard for a little over $8.
What about you? Do you ever get a case of the comparisons? Or just feel your sewing is regressing?